Tuesday, February 21, 2012

last full day.

  today is officially my last full day in the U.S. before I disappear back into the heart of Thailand. It's been a refreshing 4 1/2 month "visit". I'm thankful to have had the opportunity, & now ready to get back. Nice to have last year's worth of experience in Thailand under my belt. Going back, I have a much better gauge now of what exactly I'm getting into. It'll be nice to not be as clueless this time around :)
  I'm also very passionate about my going back this time around because of what this & hopefully upcoming years will contain as far as missions go. The ministry I've linked up with has me going to one of the poorest & most unreached areas with the gospel in all of Thailand. And I don't say that hoping to get sympathy. Rather, hopefully a reason for you to be excited for me. There's no reason to pity those leave who leave some of the familiar comforts of home to follow Christ in foreign places. Those who go & are gauging their situation rightly would call themselves privileged. The apostles "left the presence of the council, rejoicing that they were counted worthy to suffer dishonor for the name." Christ puts purpose behind hardship/uncomfortablity that is endured for His sake. I'll leave you with a quote from David Livingstone who, "gave his life to serve Christ in the exploration of Africa for the sake of the access of the gospel." He says:

"For my own part, I have never ceased to rejoice that God has appointed me to such an office. People talk of the sacrifice I have made in spending so much of my life in Africa....Is that a sacrifice which brings its own blest reward in healthful activity, the consciousness of doing good, peace of mind, and a bright hope of a glorious destiny hereafter? Away with the word in such a view, and with such a thought! It is emphatically no sacrifice. Say rather it is a privilege. Anxiety, sickness, suffering, or danger, now & then, with a foregoing of the common conveniences & charities of this life, may make us pause, and cause the spirit to waver, and the soul to sink; but let this only be for a moment. All these are nothing when compared with the glory which shall be revealed in & for us. I never made a sacrifice."

love you all...



*For information on contributing financially to my ministry in Thailand, please see links/videos below*

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

loving thailand. raising support.



Estimated Budget:
  • Teaching English at the Life Training Center
    • Working with students and adults teaching conversational English as a bridge to share the gospel
    • Teaching in villages, temples, communities, and schools where Life Training has English projects going
    • 5 days per week - avg 2 hours per day
  • Working with Thai College students doing campus and community outreach
    • Using testimonies, music
    • Also - skateboarding and other creative outreach events
    • With the focus of evangelism and outreach
    • 5-10 hours per week
  • Work with the Tranzend Team in developing ministry strategy and outreach
    • Prayer for Isaan and Thailand
    • Team meetings and planning
    • 4-6 hours per week
  • Work with Pastor Winai in the Church planting outreach
    • Visiting and encouraging the home groups
    • Working with home group leaders - training, discipleship, etc
    • 5-10 hours per week
  • Church Planting Focus
    • The main vision of FCF is to see people firmly established in healthy and growing communities of faith where they are maturing in their love for Christ, where they are demonstrating that love by serving their community and sharing the gospel, and where communities are being transformed as every believer is actively engaged in Kingdom ministry and work. 
    • In all the activities - teaching English, outreach ministry, etc - the main goal is to establish healthy, growing, and multiplying Churches!

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

burl factor 2.

   so, alot's been going on these last 5 days. got the opportunity to come out on a 2 week skateboard ministry trip up & down the west coast w/ King of Kings Skateboard ministry. I flew out to PHX last wednesday & then drove to Southern California on Thursday morning. We spent the afternoon & evening squaring away last minute details & then hit the road Friday morning. We've been making our way up thru California the last few days, so stopping in Fresno, San Jose & other cities along the way. The plan has been to go to the public parks in each of these cities we stop in, skate with everyone there, & bring glad tidings about the resurrected Hero, Jesus. Some of these stops have included one on one conversations, & others involved preaching to the crowd that  gathered around. so, we're just feeling each park out & seeing how each one goes.
    We're 5 days in, with somewhere between 10-12 days left. The trip's been going well so far, tiring, but it's been good. For me personally, I still feel like I'm in a pretty weird/somewhat out of it place, as I have been for awhile now. Closeness to the Lord & sweetness in fellowship with Him seem distant right now. But, by God's grace, He will see me thru. As I've said before, when the storm rages, God won't necessarily give you an umbrella, but he will most definitely stand with you in it. I'm banking on His faithfulness tonight, sure not banking on mine. Hold me Jesus....






Monday, October 24, 2011

rejoice always.

bible study on rejoicing in Christ.


Thursday, October 20, 2011

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

the homefront.

   A week ago today, by the grace of God, I rolled into the Gerald R. Ford International Airport in Grand Rapids, Michigan. Simply put, I made it back "home". (By the way, I put home in quotes because I'm not really sure what that term means anymore!) And so I'm settling in, getting back into a grove here in America. Got plans to head out to the West Coast for a skateboard ministry tour next week, & then hopefully Dallas, Texas for a few weeks after that. From there, hopefully spend Christmas & the New Year back here in Michigan before heading back out to Thailand in February. So my time back here will mainly be spent with friends/family, studying Thai, & raising support for Thailand.
    I would appreciate your prayers in this time of transition as I step into a new season & try to make plans for the future. My desire is to get back out to Thailand, hopefully long term, & serve among unreached Thai people & try to put Jesus Christ on display through what pours from my mouth & life. I would also like to get married & have a family. So, we'll see what the Lord has for the future. I've got a small chunk of time in this world within the much larger timeline of God's story, & want to just play the part well that I've been given. Eternity is on the horizon for all of us. May we all gladly give ourselves away for our dying world & Risen Savior in the time we have left, before we're caught up in the beautiful, eternal celebration of our great & awesome God.








Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Memory Lane.

Videos/Photos from my wild time here at Abba House over this past year. The Lord's been too good to me...

Saturday, October 1, 2011

change of seasons.

      If all goes according to plan, a week from today I should be in transit on my trip back to my native country. Four & a half months worth of time back in the states is what I'm looking at before hopping on a return flight back to the Thai land. Right now, I feel like I'm at the beginning stages of a new chapter in my life. Between finishing up here at Abba House, getting into a relationship, heading back to America & embarking on a new journey once I return here, there's a lot that's changing. And I'm looking at all of it with anticipation. But I'd be lying if I said there wasn't fear mixed in there, among other things. As I step into new beginnings of sorts, I'm finding that with these come new responsibilities. What I'm finding out about myself in all of this is that I'm not naturally an "embracer" of responsibility. As we all know, taking on responsibility means you gotta grow up. Or in my case, man up. I think Proverbs sums up the reverse well when it says that, "Where there are no oxen the manger is clean". True Story. No responsibilities=no conflict/mess. No conflict/mess=ease/comfort. Simple equations.
      But I know that The Lord hasn't called me into a life that's secluded from real life, as appealing as that may be at times. I was born into the line of Adam, but reborn into the line of Christ. The call for me now is to leave the Eden trail & follow in the footsteps of the One who showed what being a real Man really looks like. And I'll be honest, that scares me. I'm naturally, or sinfully, inclined to passivity. I don't like conflict. I don't like to fight. And I find withdrawing to be an easy way to solve those problems. At the risk of sounding cliche, it's as if I'd rather just watch the ball go by as I strike out, rather than actually trying to swing & risk missing the ball. Sounds kinda crazy doesn't it? Watch it go by & undoubtedly fail, or give it a shot & at least get an opportunity to hit the thing. What I need is a reformation. I want to be born again, again. There's so much in me that grieves me. At times, after much pleading, I feel like these things in me are never gonna budge. It can pretty disheartening. Very disheartening.
But through all the smoke & fog, there stands the message of God's free grace in Jesus Christ. The message that, even as I write this, almost sounds too good to be true. The message of a spotless lamb slain for a speckled sinner. I feel like my relationship to the gospel is similar to money in a vending machine that hasn't fallen all the way in. It's been deposited, but it got a bit stuck when it went thru the slot & needs a few good bumps for it to fully drop. The gospel is in me. It's so in me. But I need a few good nudges from The Lord. I need this gospel to drop. My receptivity to it is not as I believe it could be. With that being said, I plead & wait.
      And so as I step into the seasons, I seek to to take those steps by faith & not by sight. I step into the unknown with both my arms outstretched to The One who gave me arms. He's all I have. And He tells me that "I will instruct you & teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you with my eye upon you." So taking on these new responsibilities doesn't mean more independence, but all the more dependance upon the grace of God. May every care be cast upon Him with a heart full of joy, not fear. With a heart full of peace, not anxiety. Because the one who's holding everything together by the word of his power says, "Fear not, therefore; you are of more value than many sparrows." Those words coming from those Lips are worth more than just a good night's sleep, that's for sure.

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Sunday, September 11, 2011

bible guy.

   There's a million & one excuses we could come up with to try & dismiss this, but the truth is, at the end of the day, The 66 books of the Bible are The Final Authority. They are the God-breathed, all-sufficient Authority. Not my desires, my thoughts, my preferences, my personality, my culture, etc. etc. etc. Just The Bible. Call it oldschool. Call it backwoods. Call it whatever. But the truth is, God's the only one who has any idea what He's taking about.
    You'd think holding to this truth would be a pretty standard stance for anyone professing faith in Jesus Christ. But it's amazing how truly clinging to God's Word as That which has the final say can get you painted as an overzealous fanatic who's taken things too far. And sure, you can use The Bible to justify a crushing legalistic system, but simply being a man of the Word & being a pharisee are by no means synonymous.
    If we're going to start off on the right foot, we need to plant ourselves in the Proverb that says "anyone who trusts in his own mind is a fool." Millions of problems could start to be solved if we took this verse seriously. I would argue that our disobedience to The Lord is a result of defaulting to what we think over what He has said. And it's pride in us that would stand our ground in our opinion over the truth that's plainly laid out in The Book. When it comes to anything & everything, the question is, "What does the Bible say about this?" We must filter all things thru the Scriptures. This isn't some hyper-spirtual overreaction, it's simply seeking to be submissive to The Creator. As high as the heavens are above the earth, so His ways are higher (& better) than our ways. The reason many of us rear up when we hear that we need to filter everything thru The Word is because in some way, shape, or form we still think we know better than God. And that takes us back to Proverbs & the reality that we're acting like fools if we're going to walk that way.
    The reality of every single thing is found in how Christ designed it to be. Whatever label, title, or significance He's put on any particular thing is right. It's reality. No matter how abused that thing has been, whatever God says about it is indeed the actuality of that thing. Everything else is just fantasy. So really, we're the most sane when we're the most lined up with The Scriptures. The farther we move away from The Bible, the farther we move away from reality. Regardless of how weird that's perceived to be, simply put, His Word is truth. It's the only consistency in our inconsistent & ever-changing world. We must take our cues from Christ. The world will mock, but the world is blind, even though it thinks it's vision is fine. Sinners can't play doctor when it comes to diagnosing their own disease. We must look outside of our sin-tainted minds, & rest in every word that has rolled off the tongue of Almighty God.
    And what's amazing is that God's "commands are not burdensome." They are for His glory & our joy, & only lead to deeper & sweeter life. The way of Jesus is the way to abundant life; life to the full. But sadly, many of us don't want to drink deeply from God's river of delights; we just want to hang out on easy street. But if you belong to God, He is more concerned about your comformity to Christ than your desire for instant gratification. Just think if a parent let their child parent himself. Train wreck. In the same way, God is a good Father, & to let you decide for you would be certain death. What He's aiming at is your eternal gratification in His Son, which is what's truly best for you & most honoring to Him.
    The beautiful truth of the gospel is that Christ was slain for every one of your disobediences against Him. Not only that, but He's made His pristine obedience bleed through onto your account. So as you seek to daily trust in His mind & not your own, God is already well pleased with you before your wheels start spinning. Not only is this an overwhelming reason to rejoice, but it also guards against being the pharisee that no one wants to be around. By One Man's(& it's not you) obedience, you've been made righteous. So the holiness you wear isn't your own, it didn't come from you, it's a gift from Him. And even the obedience you strive to walk in is an outworking of God's grace that he has worked in you.
    So seek to be a Bible guy, or girl. And don't fear the flack you'll get for not trusting yourself. Go after it with all your heart. Not for the Scriptures sake themselves, but because it is they that point us to Him. We are to embrace the word as beautiful because it came from The very Mouth of God. As we read The Bible, we inhale what God has exhaled onto it's pages. Out of the overflow of the heart the mouth speaks. And how amazing it is that God's heart has overflowed, & from His Lips came the 66 books we call The Holy Bible. Enjoy.

Thursday, September 1, 2011

plans in colored pencil.

    alright. I believe I'm getting a pretty good gauge on what the plans are for the next few months. They're not in pencil, 'cause it's more serious than that. And they're not in pen, 'cause I'm never totally sure what's going on. So, I figure having the plans in colored pencil is about right. (colored pencil isn't all that easy to erase, yet it's not impossible either.)
     If all goes according to the current plan, I should be getting on a plane in just under two months from now to head back to The States for awhile. My hope is to work & save up/raise funds so that I can come back out to Thailand, sometime around early/mid 2012. As a foreigner, getting a job that pays is more difficult than you might think. The English teaching job I was looking into isn't a go right now, so hopefully I'll get a few months back in America to work instead. As I mentioned, coming back to Thailand is definitely my desire. So, I want to do what I need to do back in Michigan, and then try and get back here as soon as possible. And when I do, I should be going thru some language study and getting ready to head out to Northeast Thailand to the city of Galasin. There's a group of believers there who are passionate about evangelism & starting churches & I want to try & jump on that ship, and help that team however I can.  I'd heard 1 out of every 1000 people believe in Christ with 1 million living in the area. You may not be able to feel the weight of that, but when you look into the eyes of some of the 99.9% that don't know Jesus, statistics become reality. And that reality is made up of people who are created in the image of God, but are without Him & without hope in this world. The gospel of Jesus Christ is the universal cure.
      So, as of now, these are my colored pencil plans. I want to love Jesus, get married, have a family, & do ministry in Thailand. And we'll see how this all pans out. Man plans his ways, but it is The Lord who directs his steps. So we'll see where these feet go. And wherever they go, may they go gladly, for the glory of Christ & the sake of those who have yet to celebrate His glorious gospel.

heaven & earth.

leap for joy.
out.
bob the builder.
abba grounds.

Thursday, August 25, 2011

Monday, August 22, 2011

God's Country.

   this past weekend I got to take a trip out to Northeast Thailand (Isaan) w/ a Pastor friend of mine from Chiang Mai. He had some teaching/preaching lined up in a town called Galasin, & I got to go along for the ride. And more specifically, we've been talking about the possibility of me moving out there in 2 months; so I got to gauge a bit of what that might look like. Honestly, I think it's safe to say I'm sold & would love to labor down there for Christ & the people of Galasin. Heartbreakingly, only .01% of the 1,000,000 people in this area are said to be Christians. As one friend mentioned to me recently, it's "virtually unreached." That's all the motivation a Christian needs.
   One open door of ministry down there (& and a means of supporting myself) would be thru teaching English (though I have no college degree) at one of the schools in the area. So right now, I'm looking into/praying about that, hoping God will fight that battle for me. Other than that, I know starting home churches would also be what I'd get to be apart of down there. Really, pretty much starting fresh in an area that Paul would be excited about. He said it was his "ambition to preach the gospel, not where Christ has already been named." Galasin is just that. A foundation hasn't been laid, with many people never even having heard the name "Jesus" before, much less the gospel. What a beautiful opportunity! Laboring among a people who are nearly untouched with the gospel & watching God do God-sized things for His glory, as He "gather(s) into one the children of God who are scattered abroad."
your prayers are appreciated more than you know.
all for Jesus & thailand.

be careful!

the open road.

129 more steps to go.

worth the hike.

this is My Father's world.